sedey..sedey...

Hari ni...is the worst day ever in year 2008.. .
i am expecting a child for 9 weeks now...but then a few days back, i've got this spotting(refer to wikipedia or babycenter). ingat biasa je..tp bila dah 3 days, i went to see doctor this afternoon. she scanned my tummy and told there was no heartbeat and d baby was too small for 9 weeks. she said the it (janin) wasn't growing.maybe for few weeks. so, the result is MISCARRIAGE. my heart stopped and i dunno how to react. ..blagak biasa tp TUHAN je yg tau..then, she gave me a letter to hospital so that i can get D&C..(cuci rahimla)..bab 'cuci' tula aku dah start ngeri (dah fobia masa yg first dulu)..patutnya masa aku tulis blog ni aku patut ada kat hospital, tapi aku cadang ni nak pergi awal pagi esok jela...so all my frenz there, plz doakan aku k..so for those who already go through d same situation plz share with me your xperience...